The Uniform
One of the more odd things I find being a member of the Beowulf Squadron is the procedures and protocols. I’m not terribly comfortable with the titles, the saluting and, yes, the uniform.
Thus far, Captain Fenris has been accommodating. He’s either not bothered by my lack of military graces or else manages to keep quiet about it. While I appreciate that, there are still times when I just feel out of my element.
The promotion ceremony was a good example. It was one of the rare times Captain asked me to wear my uniform. I always feel a little guilty putting it on. It’s a privelge I’ve not really earned. I always think it’s a bit deceiving to those who see me there, dressed like those other highly skilled pilots. I don’t want anyone to assume I have talent or long hours in the air like most of our members.
Nor do I want to have members themselves take offense. I sometimes think I can’t win either way. Arrive in my uniform and risk someone thinking that wearing it shows a lack of respect for those who’ve earned it. Skip it and I risk someone thinking that I’m so full of myself I’m exempt from the uniform guideline. I’m not sure which is worse.
Which is why I’m going to stick with my policy to wear it only when I’m asked to. And hopefully they’ll all let me stay even though I don’t quite fit the mold…. or the uniform. 
Those who know me well enough know that I rarely say more than I need to to get my point across. But I have known Bahama now for a year and I have never known a more devoted assistant, talented decorator or loyal friend. She has filled in for me as Mayor when I had to leave for a little while. She has never asked for anything while providing uniforms for my pilots within the Squadron and on more than one occasion has assisted me in space knowing that I fly a little hard on the stick and she is terrified of life out there in the black. I could not ask for more from any member of my guild and indeed have never asked for so much from anyone. For this reason alone I make it clear to the other members of the squadron that even tho Bahama does not have the rank of an officer in my Squadron, she is no less deserving of my respect.
Aw, thanks